Stars - Simply Red

"Too many hearts are broken.. A lover's promise never came with a maybe.. So many words are left unspoken.. The silent voices are driving me crazy.. As for all the pain you caused me.. Making up could never be your intention.. You'll never know how much you hurt me.. Stay can't you see that I.. I wanna fall from the stars.. Straight into your arms.. I, I feel you.. I hope you comprehend.."

i am wondering if it is possible to name a star after me. it'll be cool to look up into the sky and point out to someone and say, "that star is mine and it is named after me.." then again, maybe it's not. i wouldn't want something as beautiful as that to become commercialised. it'll be like buying real estate.

i love looking up into the night sky & see the stars.. it's so beautiful & breath-taking. whenever i go up Mount Cootha, the first thing i do is to look up into the sky and gaze at the stars twinkling high above. i only know the orion belt so i will always look out for that. my cousin, hana, pointed out taurus to me before.. unfortunately i have forgotten how to locate it.

it's saturday & it's another night in for wiyah and me. the boys are at 3 Monkeys at the moment & they've asked us to come along. i want to go along, but i'm just not up for it. wiyah is already on the couch with "snowy" and a pillow watching The Patriot on tv. im sure the boys will start calling us soon enough.. (speak of the devil! my mobile is ringing and it's zakir).. looks like wiyah & i will be going to 3 Monkeys after all.. i think the fresh air outside will do us both good.. we've been indoors the whole day & it's making both of us lethargic. can't even sit still to study. and i have heaps of articles to read for next week's lectures!

it's been almost a month since i moved in here with wiyah & everyday has been a blast! i used to live in a kick-ass apartment but i dont always look forward to go back home. but now that i am living in a "kampung", i look forward to being home. maybe it's cos of the company.. wiyah is both a great girlfriend and housemate. i'm glad to be living with her now & looks like i got what i wanted.. i've told several friends that i want my last semester in brisbane to be as painless as possible.. looks like my wish has come true! *wink* and i have turned into a minah ever since i started living with wiyah. i have given up defending myself that i am no minah. *but* if i am going to be minah, i might as well be a cool minah. looks like wiyah has accomplished the mission that was given to her.

These Days - Powderfinger

"This life well it's slipping right through my hands.. these days turned out nothing like I had planned.."

good news
i received a very good news on my mobile while i was having dinner yesterday. dian texted me to inform me that she is pregnant!! i am so happy for both her and her hubby! it's the news i have been waiting for! so from wiyah & me, CONGRATULATIONS!! looks like it's going to be a december baby! *wink*

bummer
john informed me that Blink 182 will only make their way to brissy 13th September. i am very disappointed that i will not be able to make it to their concert seeing that i will be back in Singapore by then. i am really bummed about that cos i was looking forward to go to their concert really badly! and i am still bummed about losing my Swatch watch. *sigh*

i've been walking around looking for fresh daisies but don't seem to be able to find them. i want some fresh flowers for the home and of course i want my favourite flower. i used to see them around alot, but not lately. whatever happen to them daisies?

it's friday and i can't believe how fast time fly. the weekend is finally here.. no plans so far except to catch up on work. im close to being broke anyway so i better not go out.

Diamonds On the Inside - Ben Harper

"A candle throws it’s light into the darkness.. In a nasty world so shines a good deed.. Make sure the fortune that you seek.. Is the fortune that you need.. Tell me why the first to ask.. Is the last to give every time.. What you say and do not mean.. Follows you close behind.."

bugger!! why?! why?! why?! i found out from john & jay that Blink 182's concert on friday has been cancelled and postponed til july!! apparently a member of the band got himself into an accident or something like that. grr!! they better not get themselves into anymore trouble/accidents and cancel the next concert. so annoying!

i am a walking zombie today. i go into lectures and nothing is registering. my fault for going to bed late last night even though i know that i have to get up early today. it's 10 minutes to 4pm and i am still not awake. and i have had 3 servings of coffee already (wiyah, if i am hyper later you know why). still not working. am having trouble keeping my eyes open. to make matters worse, the batteries to my discman went dead on me cos i forgot to charge them last night. *slaps forehead*

3 weeks down and 10 more to go. i can't wait for next week cos there's something for me to look forward to! *grin* i'm excited for April to come as well cos a couple of friends will be flying into brissy to pay us all a visit! plus the mid-semester break will be happening next month as well! yes, i have 2 assignments to hand in next month, but it's not too bad. i think?

Obessions - Suede

"obsessions it’s like sex.. it’s simple and complex.. it’s called obsession.. can you handle it.. it’s connected to the hip sound and it moves with the underground.. it’s called obsession when you’re around.."

it's official. i lost my favourite Swatch watch. it has disappeared and no where to be found. i have been looking around for it the last 3 days & i can't find it. i thought i left it at the boys', but it's not there. and it's not at home either. so now i am walking around watchless. i can't not have a watch on my right wrist. i feel so damn naked! it feels like crap not being able to know the time. thank goodness my mobile tells the time. but it's not the same as having a watch on my wrist. argh!! *slaps forehead* when will i ever stop losing my stuff?! klutz isn't even the word to describe me.

i want to start on the essay for my Music Subculture class but i am stuck cos i have no idea what to write about. i am in the library trying to find any ideas for me to work on but i can't seem to find any!! so frustrating! the topic given is easy. we're supposed to pick a music subculture (e.g. punk, rock, reggae) and write about it within a particular period (e.g. 1960s, 1970s). we're to write about the subculture's social identities (geography, class, age, gender), social & symbolic practices (music consumption, style of music, uses of particular spaces, styles of dress, speech & deportment, behaviour, media production, DIY & subcultural enterprise) and their values (ethical, aesthetic, political). i have to say its a simple assignment but i can't narrow down which music subculture i should work on. ARGH!!

Lagu Cinta - Dewa

thanks to jay, i am hooked on songs by Dewa. keep listening to the cd over and over again..

this is the work of my friend, Yusni. i thought i'd put it up cos it's a beautiful picture. enjoy!

Pupus - Dewa

it has been a very long day today. wiyah and i stayed up til about 5:30am studying. funny.. i used to be out til about that time on saturdays. but i haven't been up for clubbing or any other social activities lately. dunno why. its a good thing i suppose, seeing that this is my last semester i should be studying more than being out. i have alot of time to play later after the exams.

john's text message at 11am woke me up. he asked if i want to go get groceries today. we've ran out of food so i told him that i'd be coming along. lin came to pick zul, john and me & then omar and she brought up to stones corner and then to sunnybank. i have never done groceries at sunnybank and i wish i knew about the place earlier. the vegetables are so fresh and cheap!! i bought enough food to last us probably about a month! ok, i'm exagerating. too bad it's quite far away. i wouldn't want to travel in public transport with bags of groceries all the way from sunnybank to west end. it's ridiculous. we started shopping at about 2pm and didn't return tim about 6pm or so. lin said that if we want to do groceries just give her a call and she'll drive us there so we can do grocery shopping together. she is such a cool chick.

john cooked dinner for the first time in his life tonight. he used the instant packet mix but it's good enough. feroz prepared black pepper beef and fried veggies. it's a very good dinner for a first timer. give him time and he'll be able to prepare meals from scratch. no doubt about that!

going to be another long day for me tomorrow. have to go to uni in the morning, then later to DIMA to settle the last bit of my student visa. i am craving for the day i dont have any plans other than uni. i am feeling very tired. need to recharge.

Forever Young - The Pretenders

"May God bless you and keep you always.. May your wishes all come true.. May you always do for others.. And let others do for you.. May you build a ladder.. To the stars.. And climb on every rung.. And may you stay.. Forever young.."

was over at the boys' for dinner (as usual) and john & jay were there too. zakir was the chef tonight & he cooked his "famous" mee goreng. wiyah & i still don't have a television in our house so the only time we watch tv is when we're at the boys'. watched The Honors on tv just now.. one of my all time favourites. felt guilty watching it cos i think the boys wanted to watch the soccer match that was showing on Foxtel but since i was watching the movie, they didn't make a fuss about switching the channel. i think it's also cos they are occupied with the x-box that just arrived via DHL.

i remembered watching The Honors the first time years ago.. i cried at the end of the film. it's an inspirational film i must say. and i love the moral of the story - it's more important to earn a lesson about the world and life than being too occupied earning a degree. there's more to life than that piece of paper. yes, i agree that earning a degree is important.. it's like your passport to many places, mainly professionally. but one must always remember that learning what life is about and how the world works is more important cos this knowledge is more valuable to one. and the mind needs to be stimulated constantly.

ripped this off a friend's blog (which has to remain anonymous).. i hope she doesn't mind me ripping from her. it'll be the same thing i'd say to my partner.. when i have one that is..

"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive... he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."

at this very moment, i wish i can have just a glimpse of my parents. i wish i can transport myself to my home in Singapore (sort of like the invisible man) and just watch my parents doing their everyday thing. i miss my parents. so much. it'll really make my day if i am able to see their faces. even for a split second. am glancing over at the family photo as i type this. i want to sit with my parents and have conversations with them, like we always do. wiyah and i have set a tentative date to fly home. we're both looking at 4th september. 2 weeks down and 11 more to go before the end of semester. we will be sitting for our exams throughout the whole month of june. winter break will be in july (and results will be out then too) and we have the whole of august to prepare for our return. we're both planning to have a little holiday together, maybe travel to sydney and melbourne between july and august.

Antara Cinta Dan Kasih - Aishah

a flower grew unexpectedly in the cold winter season it bloomed beautifully with the most perfect petals and gives out a very enchanting scent the beautiful flower mesmerised the eyes that lay on it it was thought to forever live and never will fade
but winter left and autumn came along the petals of the beautiful flower began to fall one by one and it soon died a tragic death..

I Want To Hold Your Hand - Beatles

"And when I touch you I feel happy inside.. It’s such a feeling that my love.. I can’t hide, I can’t hide, I can’t hide.."

Honest criticism is hard to take, particularly from a relative, a friend, an acquaintance. Or a stranger

to colour or not to colour..that's the question. have been contemplating for a while if i should colour my hair. i coloured my hair auburn on my last birthday. thinking if i should do it again this year. and if i colour, what colour should i get? i love auburn but i want something different this time round. should i get a reddish shade? or maybe something brownish? but then again, i miss my original colour. am afraid if i colour my hair i will regret it. i regret cutting my long hair and now i can't wait for it to grow. so what should i do now? i think i will sleep on it. again.